The optimism of a pessimist

What do you do when you find yourself into a maze, blindfolded not knowing what you are looking for? They say and it's been one of my beliefs that is best not to have expectations. Reality changes when expectations are added in the picture and misery soon follows. It's hard not to expect, not to picture the future, not to try to see in advance, to imagine what it would be like. What happens when you are afraid that your worse fears might come to life? Fear is a dangerous thing, a monster that stops you from doing what you want, from saying what you want, from being, from living. When you don't have expectations, when you are not waiting for something, amazing things might happen. You may find yourself in an adventure on unknown ground and also into yourself, guided by others, forced to trust others, blindfolded and in the end flying safely above the night sky. Well it happen to my one night without expecting it and at the end of my little unexpected adventure i found myself smilling. Yes, it's true, someone might surprise you when you least expect - bringing you coffee, flowers or maybe just a smile in the middle of the day - and that's the beauty of it. They say to enjoy every second, to be greatful for every second & for everything. Yes, it's hard, very hard when you find yourself at the bottom. The ideea is to stop waiting and to live now. Some things might never happen so just live. We often find ourselves on ou way to places, persons without will, without being in the mood, without actually beeing there, but sometimes life surprises us and offers an unexpected adventure or perspective. And fears...yes fears are there, within, fears are when we look back on what it was and forward to see what lies ahead, but sometimes it's good just to be here & now. We are miserable because we constantly want to change things, change where we are, what we do, where we go, change thoughts, feelings, we are desperate for control and we are sometimes...spitting against the wind and at least from time to time is best to let the wind blow you away and stop fighting it.